Sitting up in my room....

I sit here, alone in my room, contemplating my life and accomplishments....and really, they don't add up to as much as I would like for them to. I'm sad today. I'm sad and very frustrated. I keep thinking to myself that perhaps I will still make it to PC...even though yet another year has passed...that makes four in total. I am hoping to make changes in my life that will propel me towards my future, instead of the usual inching along.

The quote on my mind right now goes:
"There Are 3 Types of People In This World: Those who MAKE things happen. Those who WATCH things happen. And those who WONDER what happened."
I am striving not to be the latter, and yet I sometimes feel as though I am ALL talk and no action. The Bible says that "Faith without works is dead..." (James 2:26).
I pray that God helps me to stop being so anxious about success. He's already given me the strength AND the faith that I need to do what I want and need to do. I know this....
Alot has happened in the last 3 months. I have done things I did not think that I would, or could, possibly do. Good as well as bad. The latter for which I pray that my heavenly father has forgiven me.
And although I am sad, maybe hurt, right now, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I will come to a place where this too, has passed.....

I just wish that it didn't hurt so much to get there.


I leave you with the lyrics of a song I love, sung by Tamyra Gray:

When Seasons Change lyrics

In my time I've seen somethings
People come and people go.
I've seen the colors autumn brings,
And how winter rain turns into snow.
And this I know for sure
Though seasons change I must endure.
For you promised you'll be there when seasons change.

The fire of my soul
Though with time this house grows old
Will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me
For you promised you'll be there.
It's good to know that you still care
For you promised you'll be there when seasons change

Oh, the fire of my soul
Though with time this house grows old
Will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me
For you promised you'll be there
It's good to know that you still care
For you promised you'd be there when seasons change
For you promised you'd be there when seasons change
For you promised you'll be there when seasons change


God...you promised that you would never leave me nor forsake me, but you'd be with me even to the ends of the world.....