wow

so much bad stuff has been happening back to back lately. I've been trying not to focus on that, though. But today i received a call from my doctor's office with not so good news...and, the Christian me is trying so hard to trust God and his word...the woman me is trying to trust the Christian me who is trying to trust God....lol.
I know that God loves me....I'm just tired of crying and working hard for seemingly nothing. And even as I write these words scriptures constantly pop back into my head...be strong and of good courage, do not fear or be dismayed...; those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength...; be not weary in well doing........
*sigh* the Bible sure was right about one thing if nothing else...Raise a child up in the way she should go and when she is old she will not depart from it; bc no matter how hard i've tried (which hasn't been very hard, to be honest) I am unable to stray very far from my relationship with my father (God). I'm thankful for this. I just really need him to be evident in my life right now more than ever...really really evident.